Friday, March 30, 2007
for the outing this sunday cuthbert invited si tian and joyce.
you know what? i am so not coming.
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i mean, i don't hate si tian or joyce, but its just that i am not close to them; and i tend to keep to myself; not being the real me, and i feel very uncomfortable.
so cuthbert, if they are going, i'm not.
besides, i have 4 tests to study...
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yesterday, we had geography topographical trail. i brought a horde of cookies then and i refused to share :)
during the trail, the instructor gave us a 'minty' leaf to eat.
a leaf people. a leaf.who knows what happened to the leaf. maybe a bird shit on it :/
anyway, fadhil, michelle and sha tried it and they say it wasn't bad. yong han and i also tried it and spit it out, totally disgusted. i hate eating leaves!!
we also went to a capony walk on a bridge.
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so i think i have made a decision. i won't go to tampines mall and watch the movie. sorry to disappoint you cuthbert.
really. i can't make it.
F.I.Y: pei shan and sha are singing to a tune in you tube in our school computer lab and arguing over vocabulary words. sheesh
Stuffs I painted @ 1:44 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
my calendar schedule's getting really tight.oh no!! i am going to suffocate!!!!pauline, wake up and quit the drama!!!-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-so ok. on april 1, i have 2 activities: going out with the eight of us temasek friends to tampines mall to watch the movie "mr bean's holiday". at the same day, i have a school reunion at tampines primary (free lunch) where i get to meet my old classmates once again.truth is, i am not really excited about this reunion thing. i mean, i already have friends in temasek, and most of my 6 Care classmates are just plain friends; not really close to them.plus, my best friends, christina and lynette cannot make it on that day because they are busy.but i really want to attend so that i can see my ex-teacher. it would be a disappointment to her if i can't come.....so hard choices!!! movie or reunion?i choose movie.so why do i still feel bad?-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-on 30 march, i have to go to church for a confirmation meeting(8-9.30pm) but i might reach home late because of my CCA which normally ends at 5.30pm....no time to rest or anything.i can't skip the church meeting coz' its compulsory. i can't skip dance coz' i'll fail my CCa attendance.i really hate this choice thingy....-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-saturday night, i attended a youth mass at my church (see pei shan? you are not the only one). the sermon was interesting, much to my surprise.sunday morning, i went to my cathechism class where each of us washed our classmates' feet as a sign of reconcilation (can't spell) and forgiveness just as Jesus washed his disciples feet.i hope the person who i want to seek forgiveness with also apologizes :)-/-/-/-/-/-/-/-still, today, i can't focus on studying my geography; 4 hours past. what more, my test is tomorrow!!! i can't get my head in the game!!!!geography hates me.i know.i can tell.look, i always end up getting.....a miserable A2.a2.a2.a2.a2.a2.always.sigh.i also haven't fully studied my chinese spelling and did my yellow english reading booklet. 6 articles to go, people.pray for me, people.
Stuffs I painted @ 6:07 PM
Friday, March 23, 2007
thursday was one of the worst day of my life.
yesterday we had P.E; napha test training. our class did standing broad jump, seat-ups and ran 1.2km.
stupid standing broad jump....can't exceed 150cm...nearly failed and broke my wrists.
i know i'm pathetic; no need to say anything.
seat ups was OK, did 26 in 1 minute. syahida did 49!!!
it took me 8 min and 7 sec to run 1.2km......not to shabby :)
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on this very same day, we had literature drama. my group was a huge mess. they did not prepare for the next scene, did not inject emotions in their lines and didn't know their places. i was so mad and frustrated. all my hard work gone to waste. sha and michelle said it wasn't that bad but i thought otherwise.
how i hate group work.
pei shan looked cute anyway; wearing skirt and jeans.
its a matter of time before cuthbert starts to notice her :)
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i rushed home early after school, only to find out that my mom did not allow me to watch my soap opera!! i didn't do anything wrong at all! i did what she told me: hang my clothes, wash the dishes and pack my bag. but she said it had adult content. yeah right. i have been watching it for a number of weeks already. just business mixed with family problems and love complication. not much violence...
i was so mad then. i kept my hopes up and now look. they have gone down the drain. i then did my homework with a heavy heart....
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so now i am seating here at the computer lab in temasek typing this all out.
today nothing unusual happened. our bio teacher scolded us for practically the whole period and jing jie spit out his water during math class as fadhil made him laugh.
also, mark kept jeering "BOO!!!" to anyone who messed up.
ha.
Stuffs I painted @ 1:24 PM
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
nothing much, really. i woke up very tired today and i felt really sick; like i have fever or something...but i forced myself to go to school. i couldn't walk steadily; like i could faint anytime, or probably in the middle of the road T_T
sha was late this morning and she started out in a foul mood. (don't worry sha!)
we had our first bio class this year. miss lela's our teacher. she made our class seat with the opposite sex; excluding some extra boys.
surprisingly, i landed up with bing lun AGAIN. last year i also sat with him in bio class.... too much of a coincidence. fate, i guess.
pei shan sat with cuthbert *ahem ahem* (lucky, i suppose)
michelle sat with ren hao
moses sat with sherry
fadhil sat with rachael
yong han sat with si tian (are they fated or what??)
sha sat with jun yu (yikes sha! unlucky again! first you were late and now this?? i really pity you)
during recess, a boy spilt his drink on sha. unlucky. third times the charm. i mean, unluckiness.
during assembly, we had a 'beauty' talk. you know, the attraction factor of both sexes, anorexia and diseases, slimming, plastic surgery, the trend in different eras, why models always, without fail, look very skinny (with the help of photoshop). this officially concludes that you should be happy with your body and do not undergo plastic surgery or else you cannot move your muscles and you have to actually blend your food to eat it.
i know, gross.
we also had english debate. our class managed to enter the finals and had to debate on should P.E be voluntary? our class was the opposition team. our advantage was mark; he has a die-hard american accent :)
the 8 of us are planning to go to tampines mall next sunday to watch "mr bean's holiday" haha. woots. can't wait.
Stuffs I painted @ 8:32 PM
Friday, March 16, 2007
so ok. i was awoken by my mom's ranting of my dad. saying he was "black-hearted", "devil", new words everyday.
i am still not used to this.
i hate it when my parents fight. i really do.
so when it would stop? when i am 30?
yeah right.
more like, till i'm 60.
i wish the holidays would end faster. i would go to school and just forget the whole thing.
cause i am sick and tired.
50000 tears i cried.
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pei shan sent me an SMS:
'this morning when the Lord opened the window to heaven, he saw me and asks: "my child, what is your greatest wish for today?" i responded, "Lord, please take care of the people who would read this message and his or her family and friends for they deserve it and you love them very much." the love of God is like an ocean you can see its beginning but not its end...'
before i received this SMS, i was feeling so down. no one can help me with my parent problems; not my sister or brother or even my dear friends who expressed their sympathy. then i thought of God. i felt like he abandoned me; alone, so cold.
my mood changed when i got Pei shan's SMS. i realised that he is taking care of EVERY single one of us; he was always there to support us in our times of need, share our joy, comfort us in our sadness.
so if you are feeling down too, always pray and talk to God.
i would be looking forward to my catechism class this sunday. my teacher said he would ask each one of us to write our problems down on a piece of paper and the whole class will pray.
something to look forward too. i would be included in their prayers :)
thank you pei shan. i really appreciate it <3
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yesterday i found 2 things i loved:
-the song "stacey's mom" by fountains of wayne
surprising. the lyrics is about this guy who is in love with his friend's mom....funny how it happens. listen!! you would smile all the way. a two thumbs up
rate: 4.5 stars over 5 stars
-the book "the rope trick" by lloyd alexander
its about a magician girl, Lidi, who sets out in a journey to find Ferrando, the famous yet mysterious magician. on the way, she meets Danielle, an orphaned girl in desperate need of a family, a ringmaster who is an expert in training his porkers (pigs) how to dance and a wanted handsome outlaw whom she falls deeply in love with. i think the story would be boring without the handsome guy, Julian, in it. funny romantic parts! especially, when he kisses Lidi unexpectedly. danielle is charming too. she is soo cute by the way she acts and is very childish, naive and innocent. she was the one who predicted that Lidi and Julian would fall for each other.
wonderful story. a must read!! 4 thumbs up (wow. like i have 4 thumbs that is)
rate: 5/5
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i am still stuck doing my geography written assignment which i cannot find any useful information on the net!!!
urgh.
infuriating much.
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i plan to watch "phantom of the opera" tomorrow at channel 5, sunday, 7.30pm!!!
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still can't find anything on geography.....
sigh. before i pull all my hair out.
Stuffs I painted @ 9:52 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2007
dear faithful readers
shahirah/pei shan/cuthbert/michelle/yong han/lynette......
i have risen from the grave and gotten a new blog!!! woots. yeah.
stupid blogger help group. they never fix my previous blog but, oh well :(
i've gotten a new one; something to gloat about, come to think of it.
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my previous post is here; i managed to salvage it...dated 2 March
i think i have found my long-lost twin brother. Yong Han.
ok, this is plain weird.
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yong han and i have so much in common:
1) we love food. we will get pissed if our stomachs are empty (we are not fat, by the way)
2) we love our hair. mine is rebonded beautifully while his spikes up.
3) he and i take pride in caring for our branded items; such as converse bags....even if i don't have one; my present bag is nearly branded
4) we like doing lame stuff
5) we are dramatic; also pei shan
6) we like talking funny stuff
7) we like sharing weird experiences
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differences:
- he is more vain than me
- he carries a mirror around; while i, brush
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ok, so, i have forgiven Cutbert the night i posted my previous blog entry. so, we are OK now :)
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our class, 2E, went for the battlefield trail yesterday. first, we went to Fort Canning, Battle Box. it was dark and cold inside; we were 3 storeys underground!!! Mr Soh was wearing his ridiculous hat which made him look like a British mannequin when he was still. inside, we freaked out when we mistakened mr Soh as a british mannequin which came alive in the battle box. our class was practically screaming. si tian complained to mr soh to remove his hat. haha!!!
next we went to Bukit Chandu museum- last time known as Opium hill where the malay regiment fought bravely against the japanese soldiers. our class was split into 2; odd and even index numbers. the odd group would watch the show first while the even would look at the exhibition. the show was about the malay regiment fighting the Jap soldiers. there was a lot of lighting, loud booming and screaming to add effect. when it was the even group's turn, we could hear REAL screaming inside. syahida, no doubt. mai wanted to add fun so she opened the door and used jing en's jacket and made it "float"- probably an impression of a ghost. everyone inside watching the show booed. so funny!!
then we had lunch (finally) at changi village and then went to changi musuem and the bus drove past changi prison. creepy.
after that, we went to Kranji War Memorial to pay respect to those who died in World War II. there was a woman playing a bag-pipe. 4 girls from my class (i am so good.....don't mention names) kept laughing.
i don't understand what's so funny. if you died in a war, would it be nice if someone laughed at your death???
hey, these people died so that we could live. show some respect poeple!!
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today, friday, we have no school.
yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
today, fiday, we have e-learning. boo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dislike e-learning. why? here's why:
- the computer laggs because the site is so slow
- inconvenient for those who have no internet access
- tedious: click, scroll, click, open, OK, click, save, OK, open, click, click click.......
- A LOT OF HOMEWORK
i would rather go to school, thank you very much.
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so now i am sitting here and it's raining outside; doing some stinking homework; nearly being asassinated by my sister; eating chocolate chip cookies and drinking milk; waiting for my filipino drama to start: "maging sino ka man" and "sana maulit muli" and "pinoy big brother season 2" and my mother commenting that i am insane- being scared of the thunder.
i wish something exciting can happen to me now.
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today, 15 march, pauline gets another blog.
did i mention how i hate holidays. oh, yeah, sure. we take a break and unwind.
SO WRONG!!!!
my school happily gives us more homework. no surprise there. T_T
6 homework and 4 projects to complete within this week. hello, am i superwoman or something???
get this straight in your heads people.
so like, for this entire week, i am stuck doing homework. thankfully, TV and computer exists.
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i went to pei shan's house on tuesday to do a project. no matter how many times i've been there (the last i counted was 3 visits) i am still fully mesmerized by her huge house; and i really mean huge. sent me into a wistful thinking of being rich...
just yesterday was my brother's birthday; a horrible day. it's not that i have forgotten to buy him a present (which i did) but it's just that my parents fought recently and now, our family is spending my brother's birthday separately (pardon me if i can't spell). where's the family bonding????
i hate this. this is plainly worse than homework.
i can't stand my mother telling me how i am as stupid as my father or how i shouldn't marry a man when i grow up; better being an old maid.
well, mom, too bad for you. just because you hate dad right now doesn't mean i won't get married.
what else did she say? i can't remember now.
i don't want my parents to get a divorce. whatever mistakes the adults do it affects their children; and they don't even know.
how naive.
my mom doesn't know that i have been staying up at night; crying and praying to God for his help.
nope. adults are thick-headed. i promise myself never to act in that way to hurt my children in the future.
no sympathy. just nagging and scolding. swearing and cursing. no drop of pity for me and my siblings.
readers, i really need your help right now. pray for me (pei shan!) that i will make it through this.
by the way, i watched "Devil Wears Prada" last night with my sis and dad.
+add F.I.Y: see sha? it isn't hard to write proper english!
Stuffs I painted @ 5:51 PM